I shudder to think what would happen to this world without mamas. God knows there is nothing better that a mama’s love, and there is no greater privilege than being a mama. I was blessed with a sweet mama, and being a mom blesses me more than anything else in this world. I thank God for the loving mommy He gave my granddaughters and delight in hearing them laugh and play throughout the day. A mama’s love is a taste of God’s love, and I have learned to run to Him, as I ran to mama, with my arms and heart wide open.
God loves openly with the abandon of a mama, and He expects me to love the same way. I am learning to let go of relationships that are not loving and move away from the dysfunction of disconnection. There is safety in dysfunction and disconnection, and I’ve hidden my heart in one form or another of both for most of my life. My heart’s anchor was yanked loose when I lost mama four years ago, and it’s proving to be a good thing for my heart. My heart was out of balance, and my anchor needed to be yanked up out of the mud. God has shown me clearly what He desires and does not desire for my heart, and I understand love better now than ever before in my life. I got a bite of bitter discord this week that left a terrible taste in my heart, but I also had a lavish display of love that left me filled to overflowing. I have a choice when it comes to love, and I choose to love with my whole heart and leave the rest to God.
I have always loved my son with abandon, and I always will. I don’t think about loving Him, and I never worry about him loving me. Tyler gave love a new dimension when he entered my life thirty-three years ago, and his beautiful daughters and my daughter-in-love have taken it to an even higher plain. Lillyann just came running down to my room to show me the paper cut she got while she, mommy, and Mylah were reading bedtime stories. My heart just melted as she showed me her boo boo. What a blessing to be able to be part of this sweet little family and share those little boo boos. I told Lillyann that there was nothing that made a boo boo feel better than mommy’s love, and she agreed. Thank you God for the love of mamas and for letting me experience it on so many levels and in so many amazing ways:)