Unpacking My Heart

My dreams this week have been unlike any I can remember. Like folders neatly stored in a box, they have come in simple succession. Each contained a small bit of history or a memory long forgotten, and each was very pleasant. I’ve dealt with recurring nightmares that contained trauma too difficult for daylight, but these mundane little memories were simple scenes that left me wondering what to make of them. God used a tapestry to remind me to enjoy each and not ponder hidden meanings.

I overthink, overlove, overeat, and overdo; so God’s message made me smile as I enjoyed the memories the dreams brought to the surface. There are many opinions when it comes to the meaning of our dreaming, but I agree with the notion they are meant to help us heal and move forward.

“In the 1980’s, Wallace Clift and Jean Dalby Clift took the work of Ann Faraday and further¬†explored the relationship between images produced in dreams and the dreamer’s waking life. Their books identified patterns in dreaming, and ways of analyzing dreams to explore life changes, with particular emphasis on moving toward healing and wholeness.” (Wikipedia)

I’m not an expert when it comes to dream interpretation, but I have found great healing in dealing with recurring nightmares in the past, and I am finding sweet solace in the simple dreams of the past week. When I downsized before moving, I had to go through the painful process of letting go of things that were dear to me. It wasn’t an easy process, but the results have been amazing. I am moving forward, unencumbered and free.

I found healing and wholeness packing and unpacking all those boxes, and the simple dreams this week have unpacked my heart in the same manner. My sister, Ann, made a tapestry for me years ago that I have above my desk. It reads:

“We shared many secrets,

the same Mom and Dad.

We shared lots of good times.

Don’t think of the bad.

Our memories we’ll cherish

with love without end.

I’m glad you’re my Sister.

I’m glad you’re my Friend.”

When I woke wondering about the deeper meaning of the simple dreams, I saw the tapestry and smiled. I needed to remember the good times, the simple times, the everyday and ordinary times. My heart has been deeply hurt by bad times and and shared secrets, but it is by good times and shared memories. God’s lesson for me this morning was to unpack those memories and savor each one.

When I got to the bottom of my heart, I found love expressed in thousands of moments which came to the surface in simple dreams. It was nice to unpack each, smile, and remember to focus upon the good times instead of the bad. I’ve allowed nightmares to define me, but God sent a new image with a series of sweet, simple dreams that paint a much more accurate picture of my heart.

Unpacking My Heart

Author: Gigi

I taught middle school for 33 years and retired in 2007. I'm enjoying my journey and loving the time I have with my two little granddaughters who call me "Gigi." I want to share my journey with them and with anyone else interested in sharing the lessons God has for me on this amazing journey.

2 thoughts on “Unpacking My Heart”

  1. You’re so brave! This is what I want to validate throughout this entry. That is the feeling and thought that resignated in my heart. Letting go of belongings that have such strong sentimental value in both happy and sad memories is a very deep process. It’s not only the task of letting go of the belongings, it’s going through the emotional journeys in your mind and heart. This is the reason I celebrate your courage !!! The dreams are proof to me that you have been processing the past to the present. Your subconscious to your conscious mind. Doors had to be reopened in the corners of your mind so the woman with the wisdom you have now would be able to reflect and feel each memory. Processing them with love, compassion and forgiveness then carefully (like the tangible belongings) sort through and choose what and how to let go or keep what brings you love and peace. All I reallyHey hope you get this lol. We are just zapped and Kevin took a nap but I couldn’t. I think we aren’t going to make it. Maybe on your way out you could stop by real quick I know you have to work. All I really know for sure is as I’m just finishing downsizing my closet and it’s been a lot of hard emotional work too but it’s a solid start to what you’ve accomplished in a very short time. I see a courageous wise woman who has inspired me to continue letting go. I will save the hardest three spaces Michael, Mom and Dad for last. I love you, you’re a beautiful soul.

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